Monday, March 26, 2012

7 days of iphone pics

Reading her St.Patricks day card from Great Aunt Ann-Mo!
Here we go again. I admitted previously to taking a copious amount of pictures...I have an obsession, her name is Emerson, and  my life is just what happens around her.

Playing in the bradford pear tree flowers that have taken over my  driveway life.
Spreading more weeds for mom! I'm pretty sure
the picture proves I have plenty already.
Morning Daddy!! Breakfast time.

Play time with her cousins. She LOVES these boys.

She works hard for the money.

Roasting marshmellows with of their

What daddy is REALLY up to while
he is away.
Seeeeee daddy!!
Bathtime for my silly face.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

No words needed!

This just about sums it up!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

A wee bit Irish

It was another St.Paddy's day spent together for our little Irish family. We headed out to lunch with my parents, and Shane's Aunt Donna. It was nice to spend some time with them, since I like to hoard my hubby when he's home for a limited time. We headed to the park afterwards but it was so hot we only stayed for about 20 minutes... but it was plenty of time for Emerson to do her most favorite thing..swing :)

And of course lets not forget our comparison photos from previous St. Paddy's Day's!



Wednesday, March 7, 2012

A completely random post

So I'm guilty of taking tons of iPhone pictures. I seldom whip out my digital camera or even my video camera..(yes I said it..I still own one of those!) both relatively new too. I can always trust having my phone within arms reach to capture those moments so why bother remembering anything else?! Problem is..I have all of these pictures and nothing to do with them..some make it to FB..some make it in messages to my husband..but for the most part they sit in my camera roll unseen by anyone but me. So today I'm going to spew them all over my blog. I should really do the "My week in iPhone pics" but I ALWAYS forget. I want Emerson to be able to look back at this blog one day and say "HEY! I've never seen that picture of me before" today mission accomplished.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Let's rewind back to 2/14/2012

And pretend I posted this then!

It was Emerson's very first holiday ever..and this year was her third time celebrating. She has changed so much in the last 2's amazing to compare.


I always make it a point to celebrate every holiday with her. No matter how small  or how young she is I always make a big deal out of them, like some crazy lady whipping up heart shaped pancakes, and taking the time to cut <3 know the type!
 It was a little bit different this year since it was our first Valentines Day without Daddy. That was a little rough for me. Considering it was the first heart day we have been apart. Well that ..and add in the fact that 4 years ago on 2/14 we sat around a hibachi grill as he placed an open ring box in front of me just as I was turning around. I'll be the first to admit how cliche' that date is to get engaged...however it is mine, so I must own it!
So Em and I made sure we thought of Daddy and sent him this :


I have just as much  more fun than she does celebrating. Annd I really hope I can pass that love I have for every holiday on to her. They sure do make some super sweet memories.
As Emer would say the chalk-rit(chocolate) and yayi-pops(lollipops) we're total hits. She couldn't wait another second to tear into the wrapper, and I couldn't tell which one she loved more. We made the most out of our day together and I am grateful I was able to share it with my little love bug.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Dear Shane

We are three months shy of a year apart. I'm not sure if I am happy we made it this far or sad that it's been so long and we still aren't back together.
I'm trying.
 I try everyday to suck up the "I'm missing yous". But it's always there waiting... for a quiet moment when I am alone...hiding in every one of our daughters smiles...staring me in the face when we go out..I can't escape it.
I need this to be over. I don't think I was prepared for this sacrifice. I knew it would be a process..but I figured six months tops. What's six months to change our lives forever? I can't explain to anyone the feeling...the anticipation...the heartache...the toll this is taking on me. I can't wait to have our family back together. I.can't.wait. Words just don't do the emotion justice. The heaviness in your chest, that sinking feeling that has you ready to hurl...the symptoms that your heart is breaking.
What's most difficult is not having a countdown..nothing to look forward relief in sight..we are just stuck here in this torturous limbo. The uncertainty of our future has me ready to raise my white flag..but I know I can't. You can't give up.... so neither can I.
 I am so ready for this separation to be a memory. Until then I can only keep the hope. The hope that our sacrifices are appreciated, worth something, and that they will eventually pay off.

I love you. I miss you. I'm searching for strength. Please come home soon.